When he walks up in the morning, he really

does

have every intention of following his

grandfather's instructions. He just makes one crucial mistake first:

Dazai checks his Instagram.

Not for any

particular

reason 'he's just gotten in the habit of checking his social media when he wakes up most mornings. And, unfortunately, he sees Chuuya's most recent post.

At first, it's innocuous. There's another beautiful girl, a redhead 'one he immediately recognizes as Chuuya's sister, cuddled up with a raven-haired girl in a restaurant booth. That isn't the shitty part.

It's the two people on the other side of the booth.

Chuuya is in an oversized sweater, green, and the filter brings out the shades of his eyes

just

right. God, his smile still hits Dazai like he's being punched in the

gut

, and he knows that beneath the scarf around his neck, the marks Dazai made are still there.